Friday, November 7, 2008

Companionship...

Recently I was thinking about the movie, Facing the Giants. I always think back to the part in the movie when the couple is in the field talking, and enduring struggles in the marriage, trying to have a baby, as well as the coach trying to keep his job... The question they present to us; "Will you still love Him(God)?"

I continued with that thought, I as a Christian know that God will always love me and i will always love Him, but i wondered what would be something that could happen to me that I would be that angry with God because of my suffering. To rephrase that, (watch your toes cause ima steppin')...What do i hold more dear to my life? What do i long for more than an intimate relationship with my creator?

I searched my heart, to the deepest part...I realized something, but i didn't know what it meant quite yet. 

So what do i think would be my will you still love him moment? 

If, and when, i get married to the girl of my dreams, to have her taken from me. To have the one thing that i desire most, that companionship and share that love with a person that i've waited so long for, and to lose that.

A day or so later i finally realized why God placed all of this on my mind and heart. I need to put God above that desire. I need to desire that companionship and intimacy with God before anything and everything else, my desire for a mate in life was the one thing that i held closer to God.



So what's your "will you still love him"? What do you hold closer to your heart than your Father God? It could be money, if you couldn't afford to feed yourself you would be mad at God...It could be a mate like mine, a job, a car, whatever the case,...If all that was taken away, Would you still love Him?


I challenge you, if you struggle with this especially, to read the book of Job. Job lost everything he had. His family, his fame, fortune, health. His life was by all means broken. But he never turned from God. He still loved God through it all..

Moreover, I challenge you to make that your prayer, "God break me. Fill me with your love and compassion. Wrap me in your arms so that i may find rest and renewal in your awesome majesty. God, break me, make me all that you are asking. God, BREAK ME!